Get ready for a long post.....Actually, I'm going to break it down and schedule some posts for you because it turned out way too long!
The last few months have been very dark for me. I have been up and down, back and forth. Struggling with my sin, my God, and the people around me.
I have been reminded that it is no longer I who live, but Christ who lives in me.
That God is most glorified in me when I am most satisfied in Him.
That in the presence of God there is fullness of joy.
That my soul ought not be downcast, but rather, should hope in God!
Again.
That trials and struggles build up God's people in godliness.
That Jesus Christ labored on my behalf, that He prayed for me, and that He goes on interceding for me. That as a child of God, God labors for me.
Even so, the struggle continues. I am surrounded by truth, the foundation of my life is truth, the basis of my identity is truth. God is faithful. Here I am fighting the good fight of faith, even in the face of what seems like failure after failure.
The last few months have been very dark for me. I have been up and down, back and forth. Struggling with my sin, my God, and the people around me.
I have been reminded that it is no longer I who live, but Christ who lives in me.
That God is most glorified in me when I am most satisfied in Him.
That in the presence of God there is fullness of joy.
That my soul ought not be downcast, but rather, should hope in God!
Again.
That trials and struggles build up God's people in godliness.
That Jesus Christ labored on my behalf, that He prayed for me, and that He goes on interceding for me. That as a child of God, God labors for me.
Even so, the struggle continues. I am surrounded by truth, the foundation of my life is truth, the basis of my identity is truth. God is faithful. Here I am fighting the good fight of faith, even in the face of what seems like failure after failure.
Missing your blog posts!
ReplyDeleteI enjoyed your posts on your testimony, and hope that you are in a better place right now. Nevertheless, God certainly does bring us through these times of testing and trial for His glory, and pray to Him that we come forth from them as gold. In your post above, you referenced that many of your difficulties come from neglecting your soul, and this rang so true to me. I can trace many of my downfalls and sins and spiritual slumps to not taking the time for spiritual disciplines and cultivating my relationship with Jesus Christ.
Thanks for being so open and honest!